Language "The Computation"

The author uses language in this poem to tell a story. I be live this poem is about a lingering spirit who is still obsessed with an earth bound object, stopping it from continuing on into the next life. For years this spirit has lived off hopes and past occurrences made by this earth bound object. This particular language shows the spirit as a longing one, it seeks to find the feelings that was once shared by it and the earth bound object. In the final line the spirit questions its actual being and states that this is not long life (which i presume to always be thought of as a happy one), but actually confesses to wanting to die.